How it all began
August 5th, 2025
This is the full recount, to the best of my recollection, of how I joined the pediverse. First, we have to go back, way back, to before I knew paraphiles even existed in public social spaces. I was on twitter at the time, browsing my feed as I normally did and, if memory serves, there was a “callout post” telling people to avoid a certain account. The account in question was a zoophile. This immediately piqued my interest. I'd always kind of known I was a zoo, even though I wasn’t fully aware of the word for it. I grew up sheltered and even after I got out of there, I still didn’t learn the word for zoophiles until quite a while later. I can’t remember the exact post or even the exact person they were “calling out”, although I wish I did. All I remember is that seeing someone being open about an attraction to non-human animals made me immediately interested in seeing if I could find more people like this. I bookmarked the post for later and started on making a new account. There are a few reasons I picked Breebee. One is that I felt it was inconspicuous enough that if my partner saw it she wouldn’t think anything of it. Another is that I like the way it sounds. A third is that it was far detached from the name of my main account at the time. Once it was set up, I retrieved the post from my bookmarks and followed the user in question and made my way over to their follows. I figure zoophiles must tend to follow other zoophiles. I was right in this assumption and started following a good few accounts. I was fascinated that there were this many people like me on such a public platform as twitter.
I did nothing but lurk for about a month. Speaking your voice about such a subject for the first time is nerve-wrecking, but once I did, it was so freeing. It was soon after this that I started researching making a website that would imitate the design of the old geocities websites. I never actually did that. However, while researching, I came across a website with resources on that subject. That website was the links section of a certain lavender's glade. I can’t recall if I got there via someone’s blog post of a general google search, but I do know I did not get there from anything on zoo twitter which I think is amusing. For those unaware, Lavender is a zoophile and has a webring for fellow “therians and otherkin, zoos, furries, or anyone else who feels particularly connected with non-human animals and makes it a key feature of their personal site”. Seeing this webring inspired me to make a website that I felt I could use to apply for a spot in the ring. My first attempt was mediocre at best, but I did use it for a few weeks before undergoing a complete overhaul. Despite my website having several major changes since, the key appearance has not changed much at all. That appearance being windows 95.
After this there was a period of much and the same. I would post on twitter and update my website and not much else on the paraphile front of things. It wasn’t until several months later that I came across the fediverse as a whole. The idea of a decentralized network sounded nice, especially with twitter going downhill so fast, and so I decided to join. The first server I came across that could technically be considered part of the pediverse was feral.cafe. I was semi-active there and things were going fine until I discovered my mappiness. As it turns out, feral.cafe has a rule against being open as any paraphile other than a zoophile, so I had to leave if I was to continue exploring my paraphilias. My next account was on nnia.space. Nnia was alright, but certain personal issues with its management caused me to look elsewhere. I used a small instance with about four members for a time, but I felt the need to move once more due to issues with GoToSocial, the server software they used. Next, I found myself on cutiepaws.org for a day and then made the hop to necro.rip. I loved necro.rip. It was the perfect server for myself. I enjoyed the appearance, the way it interacted, the people there, but unfortunately, all good things must end eventually. The server closed down less than a month after my joining, so here I am back on cutiepaws.org. I may move again if I find something like necro.rip again, but for now I think I will sit here and hope something comes my way.
Waiting optimistically, Breebee